LTNW!

LOL! long time no write for those who didn't get it..lol! I've MISSED YALL!!! did yall miss me?!?! prolly not huh? I know its been a while since i've blogged but for wutever reason i just haven't been in the mood.  That's prolly jus me bein a crab...i've kinda been retreatin to my shell concerning alotta things lately i think.

Anywho...yall haven't missed anything really. I just been workin...matta fact i'm at work right now! LOL! i'm sure yall coulda guessed that..lol! but other than that i just still been gettin settled in at the new place  Things are goin good so far...no drama wit my mama now that she's living there and not at her ex's house THANK GOODNESS!! I think i told yall that he went to jail. YESSSS!!! LOL! And she had a GREAT time in Vegas and brought back lots of pix and souvenirs!! yaaayyY! i was SO happy for her. So now she's been goin on interviews tryin to get a job cuz CLEARLY i CANNOT pay the rent by myself! So please pray for her on that one!

Other than that....OH YEAH!!!! I'm FINALLY moving up at my job!!!!! I accepted a Clinical Trials Coordinator position for the BMT program! It's at the same place i work now just a different program than what i work in now which is myeloma :O) YAaayyy!! I was TOO crunk bout that!!! i start Sept. 9th!!! I can't tell yall how happy i am about that...i SOOOOOO need the money. like fa real. God is good! ALL the time! :)

SO lets see...wut else. Yall know my sister and one of my BFFs had a birthday!! shoutout to my sister and my dawg BunC!!! :)

Uh oh....i gotta go back to work...hopefully it won't be another 2 weeks b4 i post again!! LOL! yall pray for me. i miss yall tho...i'll be back soon!! i hope life has been treatin each and every one of you well!! like Steve says Don't forget to pray, don't be ashamed to pray, and keep GOd first..or something like that!! yall get the drift! be blessed!!

Busy

that pretty much sums up this week..LOL! Man this week FLEW by for me and now i'm back at my second job SLAVIN!  I am SO freakin tired. So anywho i know i haven't been on here this week really so lets recap the main events for this week!

SO as yall know my mom did finally go to Las Vegas with her long lost boo I haven't even talked to her since she's been gon so i hope that's a good sign SOOO this week was her stupid ex-boyfriend's trial/sentencing or wutever because...in case yall didn't know she had called the police on him i think and he went to jail for violation of probation like a few weeks ago.  So he had his trial or wutever this week and my sister called me on Wednesday morning...she works at the courthouse (along with my cousin and auntie) so she has the scoop asap....but i missed her call cuz i wasn't at my desk. So i call her back when i get the message and she tells me that my mom's loser EX got sentenced to 3 YEARS!!!! Of course i'm like SO HAPPY....that like made the rest of my day GREAT! I had been praying SO hard for God to take that evil outta my mom's life! SUCH great news for me :)

So on top of receiving that great news i also had an interview for another position at my job on Wednesday with a doctor in the BMT program.  It went REALLY well with the Doc...he was cool peoples and he said he's love to have me work for him but that his coordinators were pretty much witches and i had to get past them first So he set me up for a second interview yesterday with the coordinators from hell....and he was right. they were some snooty, ridin on the high horse type ladies....haters...lol! But i still think i had a good interview with them as well. But i really didn't even care because on Tuesday i got an email from a lady asking if i was still interested in the opening that i applied for in the breast program AND today i got a call from a lady with the psycho/social pallative care program asking me to come interview for yet ANOTHER position!! So i'm feeling good about the work life this week which is SO rare...LOL! We'll see how things work out tho. of course i'll keep yall posted.

I finally got to see my BFF Chistina yesterday....we went to a lil comedy show in Ybor...me, her, and  her boyfriend.  It was fun tho....they serve chicken and waffles there and i hadn't had it in SO long so it was SO good to me...lol! Tore it up yall...lol! But now i'm tired as hell cuz i went out last night and cuz i been up til like 2am everynight talkin to my BNM guy that lives in tally  It's great cuz i LOVE talking to him but i be missing out on some MUCH needed sleep....cuz clealy my ass is suffering the consequences right now!  This kind of exhaustion is not healthy...and i forgot to take my vitamins today.

Damn...had to pay rent today.....that shit hurt like hell.  My contacts are so dry right now...dang i need some glasses. Sorry for the tangents...das wut happens when ur tired.  Aight...i'm bouta blow these patients UP tonight man! They are pressin that dang button like every 5 minutes!!!! LOL! Man lemme get back to work. i hope yall have a blessed, safe, and productive weekend!

No More Sheets

Lord, show me what is in
my heart, soul, mind, spirit,
and life that shouldn't
be there.
Teach me what I am not
understanding.
Convict me where I am missing
the mark.  Tear down
my arrogance, pride, fear, and
insecurities, and help me
to see the truth about
myself, my life and
my circumstances.
Expose me to myself, Lord.
I can take it. 
Enable me to correct the error
of my ways.
Help me to replace lies with
truth and make changes
that last.

This is one of my new favorite prayers. My co-worker and friend sent it to me and i LOVE it so i had to share. :) The weekend was long but i made it thru and i am SO proud of myself!! I went to the BBBS Bowl for Kids Sake event with my Little Sister on Sunday and had a great time!! She really enjoyed herself and i think we made some progress in our relationship too!!! Before we got there she was being really negative and shy  and saying that she didn't want to be there and she can't bowl and just grippin but by the end of it she was bowling on my turn!!! LOL! It was awesome  During the school year she used to be all shy when i made her give me a hug before we parted but when i dropped her off back home on Sunday she gave ME a really big hug!!  Yaaayyyy!! I was so happy :) I'm gonna try to call her tonight...maybe she can spend the night with me sometime this week! :)

So that's really all that went on this weekend for me besides work so i was SO tired on Sunday because i only got to sleep for like 2 hours before i had to get up and get ready for the bowling thing.  My mom FINALLY left for Las Vegas yesterday!!!!! She was posed to leave on saturday but her boo (we'll call him THE DOCTOR...lol) had a small disaster and some car issues that had to be straightened out so they missed their flight on saturday and didn't end up leaving til yesterday. But I am SO glad she went!!!! I hope she has a GREAT time and frees her mind of the evil hold  that her EX had on her!! yall pray for her! :)

Me and BNM are doing pretty good. No complaints there....we're still walkin a thin line between boo and friends..lol! Da Nile is SO serious..lol! But we're gettin closer all the time...its unreal. LOL! We're such good friends and the convo is STILL great...for hours...lol! How bout i called even had my friend call him on 3-way so i could talk to  him while i was at work! LOL! WHOOOOAAAAA....hmmm...dats serious. LOL! Naaaahhhh...i'm chillin...LOL! the temperature is great in Da nile!! LOL!

Hope u guys had a fun and productive weekend!! I'm sure i'll be reading about it soon :) be safe and blessed!

YES

it's a slow night 2nite...i only have 8 patients so my feet can actually get some REST! nothin much to report so far this weekend for me....i mean i've only been to work and home so OOOOOOOHH...my mom pissed me the HELL Off this morning!! She called me like 60 times!! I'm like WUUUUUUTTTTTTTT?!?! I am TRYIN to EFFIN SLEEP!!!! DO u know i worked 21 EFFIN hours?!?!?! I AM TIRED!!! mind u i am THE CRANKIEST BITCH ALIVE when u wake me up outta my sleep! SPECIALLY when i'm dead freakin tired. So when i FINALLY pick up the phone she's like 'can u go to the house and let the dogs out and change they're paper and pick up some stuff for me?' Man i bout cussed that lady OWT!!! I was like WHO gives a flying freakin FLUCK about dem dogs?!?!? NOT ME!!! and of course i'm like why can't u do it?!?!? SHe talkin bout cuz she don't wanna get served no court papers!! I was like aint no damn body serving no court papers on a SATURDAY! Man i was SO effin pissed at her. But i'm like AIGHT....just to get her off the damn phone.  SO i roll my ass over and go back to sleep!  SO i'm sleepin all good when i hear this LOUD ASS BANGING!  and of course the phone has been ringin off the hook but i turned the damn ringer off.  SO i get up angry as hell and lookin like who did it and why..and go DOWNSTAIRS to see who's at the damn door.  It's my cuzin Shea and she's like 'T-pam told me to come over here. she said to tell u she needs u to go let the dogs out.' Man i was SO pissed...i really can't describe how pissed and cranky i am when i'm tired and sleepy and somebody wakes me up on some str8 BULLSHIT!!! to make a long story short...my cuzin left, i went back to sleep, my mom blew the phone up AGAIN, i EVENTUALLY went around the corner and did the shit and when she came to the house to get the stuff she asked me to get don't u KNOW i mean-mugged her ass all the way upstairs! LOL! I was so freakin MAD at her for that bullshit!  I aint answerin the phone NO more after for her ass! SO DAMN rude! scuse my language yall but that shit had me PISSED the fuck OFF!

SO anyway...i had to get my ass up and come BACK to work by 7p (saturday). i'm over half way now but tonights slow so i am SO str8. i wish i could take a nap round this piece! LOL!  Hope yall gettin some sleep for me!

Currently Listening The Love Experience By Raheem DeVaughn YOU see related

*SMH*

Man....i'm fumin about my friend's situation concerning ragedy ass negros  Why niccas gotta run game?!?! is it SO hard to be fuckin honest?!?!? Scuse my language today yall....like Tenille said, I'm such a fuckin lady...lol! But it's all good cuz everything happens for a reason. God knows and sees all and loves us in spite of everything we do and go thru.

It was my sister's birthday yesterday!!!! SHOUTOUT to the best big sis a girl ever had!!! Me and my sister have been thru ALOT in a really short time actually but God has brought us thru it all! He is truly amazing. So there was a party/get together at my sister's last night to celebrate the occasion!!! It was SO great yall...she was SO happy she cried!!  She got a flower, candy, balloons, cards, AND her husband upgraded her wedding ring to this NICE ass platinum ring!!! It has to be like 2 freakin carats or something!! the shyt is nice tho....and he got her some clothes from demo...so he did good. we had birthday cake from Coldstone (yummy!) and sandwiches and chicken from Publix (yummy again!). It was really great....she was SO happy and i was SO happy for her and glad to see her feeling blessed on her special day. If i had money i would've gotten her something great but she knows i'm broke so it's all good We did our color purple patty cake after she read my card and hugged and stuff...it was beautiful yall. We used to ALWAYS do the patty cake from the color purple when i was leaving....whenever i lived in tally and would come to visit Tampa. So yesterday was a blessed day for the fam. We watched Beyonce's fall on youtube bout 20 times and laughed and was jus wilin' out in general like my family always does.

And today is my BFF Christina's birthday!!!  YAAAAYYYYYY!! Shoutout to my dawg Christina!! She's coming down here today!!  She and i and a few of my other friends...and hopefully Tenille too.....are posed to be goin to Mirage tonight to party!! My challenge is to get inside the club b4 they start charging at 11pm.....yall pray for me on that one seeing as how i don't get off work til like 9 o freakin clock!! Yea...that can be attributed to being up on the phone til 3am last night with my BNM guy.  LOL! Things have been back to normal with him P.S. LOL! Clearly we're back to 4....okay 6 this time....hour conversations! I thought things would be wierd but they're actually better!  There's just more flirting and hintin at us as a couple But i still gotta TIGHT grip on the reigns so its all good. We're building a pretty cool friendship so IF it ever develops into anything else we'll actually have a solid foundation!   Last night we were even talkin about him gettin a job where i work!  We talked like ALL day yesterday after work man...i don't even wanna talk to him the rest of the week cuz we burned our damn ears up yesterday! LOL! Man i hate liking people....well really i just hate feeling vulnerable to disappointment....but i'm taking things one day at a time and the days are sun shiny so far

This weekend *sigh*....another slaving ass weekend. WORSE than last weekend. I'm working my second job friday, saturday, AND sunday  And Sunday i only anticipate getting a maximum of 4 hours of sleep between gettin off of work in the a.m. and going back in the p.m.  This should be interesting. LOL! I may have a cranky ass blog over the weekend...lol! But i'm optimistic and i think i like working hard....something's wrong with me...lol! Nah but i'm just feeling blessed and happy....like i KNOW my hard work is gonna pay off and make me a better person AND i'm actually helping people so i'm glad to do it  And being on....mmmm...bout cloud 7 wit BNM doesn't hurt anything either...lol! God is good.  thank you Lord for all the blessings you've given me and will give me!

You guys have a blessed and safe weekend!! I'm praying for you!!